Dark night of the soul.
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You feel there is no hope. You've tried everything and nothing has worked.
There is no yesterday no tomorrow, just a desperate and empty now of desolation and anguish.
The emotional pain is overwhelming.
You feel pushed way beyond your limits of endurance to the point of breaking.
You feel all that you believe in is coming apart.
The dark night of the soul, as it is called, is a very traumatic and severe type of depression. It feels like your entire world is coming apart. Whatever hope you once held has been lost and all you can do it hang on for dear life, and try and survive.
No matter what you do, you are overwhelmed by waves of negativity, even when you are trying to be positive.
This is a terrible state of depression. There are no obvious solutions and chances are those around you will not understand what you are feeling, because you can't explain it to them. Some may even choose to take offence and make it about themselves.
I remember when I hit this stage. I found the people around me had varying reactions to me.
Many were oblivious that I was on the verge of a nervous breakdown. A couple asked me what was wrong and tried to help, but I truly felt there was no hope left, so they stopped trying after a couple of days. One took offense and made it a reason to have a vendetta against me, even long after the event passed.One chose to use this information against me when I confided in him.One first denied I was having any issues, and then used it was an opportunity to talk about themselves.
I had a mixed response to my dark night, but regardless, while I was in it, I didn't feel anyone could help.
The dark night of the soul is something you can't understand, not really, unless you've been through it.
But what is really going on? Why do we arrive at such a point?
What is happening is that this is our last, desperate attempt to hang onto a belief system that no longer serves us. One that has ceased to work for us for a while now, but we refuse to acknowledge it.
We hang on with all our might to what we believe should be, but really, we need to let go, and embrace a new line reality.
There are many old belief systems that might no longer be valid for us.
This could be in regards to a relationship that needs to end.
Maybe it's time to change your lifestyle or belief system. In my particular case, I believed that I would never be loved, have a partner or find someone and I was destined to always be alone.
Today, such thoughts seem inane to me, but at the time it seemed like a very real concern. I felt I had tried everything, and everything had failed on all levels.
I was stuck in a set of beliefs that no longer were relevant to the direction I had to go. Until I was prepared to accept something greater, I would be unable to move on. However, I was so convinced I had worked it all out that I was no longer allowing growth to continue.
The dark night of the soul is actually a blessing in disguise. It heralds the start of new spiritual growth. Some say it is the doorway to true spiritual growth.
A new way. A new start. It means that it's time to let the past go, and accept that there are things you do not know, and let new ideas come into your life.
It's a purging. It's a breaking of energies. And that's what makes it so painful.
This was just before I was introduced to the Bach Flower Remedies, and so I had to get through this alone. When I finally emerged, I found that I had new hope, and things were shifting and my life was never going to be the same.
Remember, at its most extreme, Yin will become Yang (and visa versa). They say it is darkest before the dawn, and this is true.
If you are experiencing your own dark night, know that things will get better and it may herald a much greater and amazing journey.
Bach Flower Remedy:Sweet Chestnut is the remedy for this state. It allows you to embrace a new belief system, and let go of the old one, without breaking you.
It works well with Walnut, which is the remedy for change.
